got the blues!

Im having the biggest wobble of my recent practice! I really dont like my work! I dont like color and Im using colors! I love the process of natural dyeing but I dont like working with color in my art, I like browns and blacks ! maybe Im not doing enough drawing.
I know people really like the birds and thats lovely and I wish I could really enjoy them too.
I made a piece yesterday and when Id finished I just hated it!! it was a scale I havent worked on for a while and that may have added to the shock but mainly I think its the colors, I must try and work with colors I like rather than try to be accurate to the colors of the birds! I need to get some brown birds started!
Hopefully Im just having a little wobble and will wake up very soon and think 'what was I worried about they are all lovely!'
(I am thinking of a series of dead bird pictures as a cathartic exercise to say good bye to the birds!)
here is the work I made yesterday.

I really prefer the back of the canvas!

sorry to whinge! Im sure Ill be brighter in a few days, not really sure whats the matter. Art wise I need to play more and stop worrying, I do put to much presure on myself to complete works and have finished ideas in the few hours a week I get to do stuff!!!.
Im thinking of having a give away again very soon maybe that will be a good start to cheer me up!
xx jenny